TEST POST
Friday 10 January 2014 
So I
woke up to my afternoon nap, well, if you still consider 5pm as
afternoon that is. Probably shouldn’t make it a habit since it’s
not a good thing to sleep after Asar. Anyways, I woke up at almost
5:53 and all I got after is anxieties after anxieties. It was hell
because once I started to think about something say, the impending
doom in the near future, I’ll constantly think about it and don’t
stop ‘till I find something to block it away from my mind. It
started with something so simple like looking at pretty pictures on
instagram and then it turn to me wanting to study hard, earn shitload
of cash and what to do once my diploma ends.
I find
it scary to be honest. I know I’ve laid out several future plans in
case some might not work out the way I want them to. I know right
after diploma, I want to pursue a bachelor’s degree in the same
field which is information technology and in Korea at that. It takes
a lot of effort from my part, I know but I find holding on to
something as big as that as something that I can consider motivating.
I also made it a point to look for local IPTAs or universities that
offers my course. Maybe I should just lay out my plans here for
future reference.
October
2013
- Finish semester 5
- Work my ass off to get 4.0 for my CGPA
- Survey for bachelor degree courses in between the semester break
- Prepare for MUET and must get Band 4 and above
November
2013
- Semester 6 starts and work my ass off for another 4.0 for my CGPA
- Learn how to write for applications for scholarships etc.
May
2014
- Finish semester 6/diploma successfully
- Settle PTPTN (4.0 CGPA = NO FUCKING DEBTS TO PAY! RM 15k MIND YOU!!!)
September
2014
- Possibly maybe get into a university preferably Inha and yes, under JPA
- Or local uni at least somewhere near home because God forbid I study far away again
- Continue studying my beloved course for the next 4-5 years depending on the course/uni
- Might as well save up for my Korea trip if I’m not living there already ^^
- Oh and I might get a part-time job if it’s not too much because I need the money
Some
months in 2018
- Get a job that pays me well
- Save up for my own house. Possibly maybe a nice apartment ^^
My
future plans looks kind of so far-fetched and scary now that I
actually wrote every detail down. But it saves me the worries that I
might have to endure after. I do know that I want to further my
degree at Inha but I’m not confident in myself if I could get in.
But I’ll try my best and yes, I’ll work hard so I can get in.
I feel
a bit relaxed now that I wrote all these plans down though. I know
what I want and it feel exhilarating because I read on a word doc
that I typed out during previous semesters about being all confused
about what I want and whatnot. I also wrote that I don’t even know
the purpose of studying here but luckily I managed to snap back to my
senses and made some pretty important decisions. Trust me, studying
in one of the hardest courses your college has to offer and being
confused about it after is never a good idea. Always have good backup
plan to fall back on. I have to go and do stuff.
xoxo
Atiqah
